What am I doing?

Have you ever asked yourself, "What am I doing? Why am I doing this?"

When have you asked these questions? Was it in the middle of an argument with someone? General
wondering about life? While you were going somewhere?

Why do you think these thoughts creep into your mind; do you think it is because they are actually telling you something? Like, maybe I should stop yelling at my kids and simply sit down and talk to them. Or maybe I need to better understand what it is I am doing in life instead of just rolling with the punches. Or maybe I don't need to really be at that gathering or event, there is something more important for me to do or place to be.

Whatever the reason is, do we listen to the thoughts that come into our minds that could actually bring us to a deeper understanding of ourselves, or do we simply ignore them? Do we address any doubt that comes to our mind and cast it out when we KNOW what we are doing and why?

On my journey in this life, I have come to understand that I second guess most everything I do. From what I am doing on a day to day basis to am I really fulfilling my specific purpose and mission of my life?

Last week I talked about faith, and I continue to learn that doubt and faith cannot occupy the same space. We are either acting on faith, or we are letting doubt lead our lives.

The big question is, are the thoughts of doubt or something to help us realize a deeper truth?

The answer to this question is simple, yet difficult for most of us to recognize. We are all blessed with an internal knowing. If we would be quiet and listen, we would know where these thoughts come from. Truth and light or doubt and darkness.

Most often we are so caught up in ourselves, that we don't actually hear the promptings that will lead us to what will be for our greatest benefit. Or we are too scared to follow what we know is true in our heart regardless of what others may think of us - especially family.

My words to you are simple - stop. Stop worrying about anyone's thoughts of you. Be still for a moment when those questions arise and allow yourself to feel what is right, then GO WITH IT. You will lose friends and maybe even family. But in the end you will gain a lot more than that. You are the only person who lives with yourself non-stop and lives with everything you think and feel. The best way to remove doubt and gain faith is by acting, NOW. Even if you make mistakes, make a choice and move forward. You will feel better about yourself and where your life is going, how you treat your spouse and children, and it will become more and more clear to you, each day, What you are doing and Why you are doing this.